So I am now horseless. Prior to leasing Mia, I had a great set-up at the barn. I showed up and got to ride whomever was available. More often someone than not. But now I feel like a beggar when I go, so I haven't been going unless for a specific reason. Bathing Bastiaan or grooming him. Riding a boarder's horse. Dropping off the turn-out sheet. Whatever.

It's time to have my own horse. I search online for hours looking for the horse in my "dream." A bay with a blaze.

I was offered a OTTB a couple weeks ago. I spent hours thinking, feeling, wondering about the best plan of action. His name was Tani Maru, japanese words for Valley Circle. I really thought it was it. I was eccstatic. But upon seeing him, I didn't get the warm familiar feeling that I thought I would. Plus there was the potential he would be forever lame. I chose not to take him. In some respects I wonder about myself.